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When I was around 9 or 10 I went to a youth camp in Hibberdene. I have always been a huge lover of music, amongst other things; with all the thoughts fighting for attention & debating sides, this song popped into my head, a song I sang at that youth camp. “I see the clock upon the wall, but it don’t bother m<\/em><\/span><\/strong>e at all… watching my life & everything I do, wondering if the dreams that I believed in could still come true”<\/em> <\/strong><\/span>how did we get so caught up in running out of time that we forgot to love where we’re standing now? (also, how did I have such an old soul at such a young age?<\/em> \ud83e\udd23 )<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I’m so guilty of getting worried that I’m running out of time. I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to be married or have children & only about 5 years ago the thought of marriage became a reality. My 39th birthday brought with it some uncomfortable truths & old hurts that I admit I wasn’t ready to face; why does it become harder to trust God with His perfect plan for our lives when we get a little older? How do we ever know if the choices we make are the right ones? Well- we don’t. At this uncertain & admittedly rather uncomfortable place in my life, I need to remind myself to just stand still for a bit. Maybe in standing still we can see & appreciate the beautiful hearts of the people around us? Having your heart set on an unknown in the future steals so much joy from today.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

There are so many things that can make time stand still, a kiss, a conversation; & when we want time to move faster to help lift our hearts, the clock ticks painfully slower. Is running out of time real or is it just a way to make ourselves unhappy with our lives? We have it all wrong don’t we? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Whenever I’ve gone through a challenging time in my personal life I find comfort in watching Sarah Jessica Parker & her 3 BFFs on Sex & the City, yep, all the way from S1 E1. The past few weeks I gained a different perspective & understood why it gave me such a great sense of comfort; it’s not the promiscuity, or the jokes, or the questionable choices that make it so captivating to watch, it’s the 4 different women with different personalities & different expectations, trying to navigate life & love in their 30s, that show us things don’t always work out the way you thought or planned, but they do work out… <\/p>\n\n\n\n